I’ve thought about it hundreds of times.
Starting a blog, my own space where I can gather thoughts, feelings, photos. Free from all those algorithms and the hustle of Instagram. But every time, it was easier to open the notes on my phone or scroll through someone else’s websites, and tell myself, “I need to think about it more.”
How do ideas ever turn into reality? When life is already packed with tasks, when you want everything to be perfect: from categories to design, from content ideas to visual aesthetics. The answer always seemed obvious: just start writing. But in reality, the idea stayed in my head, like a beautiful draft, a folder filled with dozens of concepts and ideas that’s nice to revisit but scary to touch. I got stuck in a loop of planning, where every step demanded perfection, and doubts kept me from starting. I kept convincing myself: just a little longer, I’ll refine the details and then I’ll start.
I imagined what the website would look like, what sections it would have, how the texts would resonate with readers. But the thought of dealing with the technical side and design, the fear that it might not work out or might work out, but not the way I pictured — turned everything into chaos. Structure, settings, styling… Honestly, all I really wanted was to write. About delight, beauty, emotions, about the things that make a day feel special.
And the days went by. I reread drafts, edited old notes, and rewrote lists of ideas. I did everything except the one thing that mattered — hitting “Publish”.
Was it a lack of focus? Self-discipline? Action? Persistence? Or all of it at once?
Actually, I was missing just one thing — the first step.
And finally, here it is — my first step